This July will commemorate the 5 year anniversary of Azealia Banks' mixtape, 'FANTASEA'. This September will commemorate my 20th anniversary of being alive. Basic math will show that I was 14 when I was fully exposed to Azealia's creative integrity and commitment to music.

Having heard, and already being a massive fan of Azealia's 1991 - EP (2012), it wasn't until her first mixtape that we truly got to experience her voice and stories. Samples of the mixtape released prior to release included the infamous '212', fan-favourite 'Fuck Up the Fun' and a brand new song 'Jumanji'. Listening to just these three songs will show her versatility and worth. On mixtape release day, I was presented with a 19-song strong tracklist - and without trying to sound over dramatic, my life changed.

At 14, my music knowledge was probably wider than the majority of my classmates' - but that only included chart toppers and songs my mum would blast from the bath, late on a school night. Banks was one of the first artists I could truly run into school and inform my peers about. Here's just a couple of memories I have with certain songs...

For a larger portion of my early teens, I was part of a dance troupe for a local company. My relationship with the dance teacher was very personal. We would be eager to start our dance lessons on a Tuesday with new music from the week, and discussing choreography to our own fan-made mixes. When 'Jumanji' was released, I instantly visualised choreography alongside it and had to inform Shaun! (This is the days before I utilised Facebook Messenger, so Tuesday was looming). Our dance studio was on the second floor of the leisure centre and I remember being sat on the viewing deck, overlooking the main entrance. I got there so early just to make sure I was the first to see Shaun and inform him on how sick this song really was. He clicked with it straight away, and we freestyled in the studios while we were waiting for the other students.

I went to a pretty decent secondary school - we were academically the strongest school in the area, with plenty of students from various cultures/backgrounds. We would have these house parties pretty much every weekend and I always remember getting stressed out at some of the music choices. These kids were mixing slow music straight after a trance remix of ''What Makes You Beautiful' and I wasn't feeling. Once in a while, I would take of the aux and I was eager to play 'Esta Noche'. The intro is pretty long, and I was prepared for some back lash, but my girls could trust me. Better believe when that drop came in, it became a fan favourite and actually created some fans of Azealia. This song let me truly embrace my little gay ass, as flamboyantly as I  wished.

Twitter was THE place to be back in 2012/2013. Everyone really did get along, and it was a place where live tweeting was a given. Twitter introduced me to RuPaul's Drag Race - a US based competition for drag professionals to prove they are America's next Drag Superstar. I was introduced to a culture of gay black men in the Ballroom scenes. 'Paris is Burning' became part of my vernacular (without the inappropriate cultural appropriation, of course). In turn, I could appreciate songs such as 'Fierce' and 'Chips'. On first listen of the mixtape, they essentially went a miss as I couldn't resonate or white people dance to them. These songs make me feel kunty and inadvertently tell me to take up Vogue'ing lessons. Being part of Azealia's fanbase opened my eyes to a new world of dance and culture.

The visual direction for the music video to 'Atlantis' was perhaps the only thing from the 'Fantasea era' that wasn't necessarily introduced to me by Azealia. Being one of the original Tumblr kids, I was fully aware of the vaporware scene. However, for Azealia to indulge into it was a shock for me. I had only seen her as a house/RnB artist with plenty of early 2000 references. This was new and exciting, weirdly edited and not what I expected from listening to the song. The video was released whilst I was doing my GCSEs, and I remember being sat in a Drama Theory class when I got the notification. I showed my friend, who was already familar with 'Esta Noche', and asked her what she thought. She agreed she had never seen anything like it before. She was a force to be reckoned with.

The release of 'FANTASEA II: The Second Wave' is looming, and it's always nice to look back at how music has changed you. It's not always obvious at the time, but I'm typing with a big smile on my face right now. If you've never given Azealia's music a chance, all I can do is beg you to look past any negative headlines you might have seen about her. 'Along the Coast' and 'Count Contessa' are really nice previews of whats to come.

As we develop on our thoughts and processes this new wave of feminism we are riding in at the moment, there is one dominating questions which bares me no answers.

Why are women in the music industry (still) being tortured?

With recent news of up-and-coming RnB artist, 'Kehlani' attempting suicide due to complications in romantic relationships; I can't help but wonder if there is a sweeping mental health problem across the music industry. Given that Kehlani isn't being directly affected by the music industry in this particular situation, it is still important to note the scrutiny she has faced from fellow 'artist' Chris Brown. Chris made a comment on how she supposedly faked the suicide - but who really cares for Chris after his 2009 incident involving RnB princess, Rihanna? Which leads me on to my next story...

Chris plead guilty in 2009 after physically abusing Rihanna after the Grammy award ceremony of the same year. Full details on the event can be read 'here' - but I warn you that the detailing is graphic and portrays a real event in clarity. The monster then goes on and gets a distinctive neck tattoo of a 'beaten woman' on his neck after the event which shows similar injuries to Rihanna's face. 

Yet here we are, in 2016. Chris still has a career, a platform to voice his opinions, and still working with top producers such as Benny Benassi; who just released their most recent collaboration 'Paradise'. Disgusting.

But torture doesn't stop with just Chris Brown; I'm sure we've all heard about the Kesha ordeal involving mainstream-pop producer 'Dr Luke'. I've already posted a detailed blog post regarding that situation - although, certain fact and opinions may be slightly altered due to more details being released. This abuse has been haunting Kesha for years now, and after having her rights to remove herself from the contract they share being denied, she is facing many obstacles. On the plus side, Luke's pro-tools for his music were recently leaked (a.k.a. the tools he uses to create every last song he has/will ever produced - meaning all his productions from here on out are now redundant.) His family have also spoken out claiming that they are all being affected by the ordeal, and there is no 'justice' being served. Whatever that means. There has however been huge public support for Kesha from various artists such as Lady Gaga (who personally met Kesha and other abuse victims through her Born This Way Foundation), and Adele who publicly spoke out at the 2016 Brits awards during one of her speeches. Yet - Sony is yet to react, despite other artists stating that Luke has (attempted to) abuse them [including. Kelly Clarkson and Bonnie McKee].

Lady Gaga is another artist who has been very vocal on her physical and emotional abuse during her 'up-and-coming' years as a pop artist. Although her abuser has never been given a name (which I still find very strange), it does hone in on the fact that even one of the most globally successful artists in the world right now can still be affected by this. Very little details are known in Gaga's case, but it's still been made very prominent in music releases such as 'Swine' and 'Do What U Want'.

These are just a few examples of abuse that have been made public - I can't even imagine how many other cases have prevailed, but never come up in the mainstream media. But there are enough cases to make this a concern - way too many prominent male figures are abusing their power and letting money get in between not only the law, but human rights. It's gross, and I for one am bored of seeing it.